We all have those moments in our life when we don't feel like ourselves. For me, it happened because of a mistake that sometimes you try so hard to avoid and it ends up happening anyway. In a vulnerable state of mind, I let someone really take advantage of me. But when you are not mentally whole and sound, it becomes easy for situation like that to happen.
The spiral only continued from there, not in the sense that I did bad things, but in the sense that emotionally, there was a lot I could not handle. My anxiety came back two fold and I found myself panicking over things that I would once take with a grain of salt and overcome.
A once strong individual, I began to completely break down. It was like a demolition man came at me with a wrecking ball. I hit bottom. And what's worse is that feeling knowing that we're there and having nobody to help us out, because you don't know who to trust. So we feel like "who do we turn to?" And we wish for someone to throw us that ladder. But when that ladder doesn't come around, we have to find another way to get out of the hole we are in.
But not everybody has the strength to do so. Some of us will sit and wait for someone to eventually come along and help us out, while others of us will climb, one step at a time. And though we may slip along the way, we continue to harness the strength that will eventually pull us through. When we finally see the light and pull ourselves out, breathe in that sweet air and take a look around. Embrace your new opportunity to go out and embark on a new journey. But if you feel that you need to close that hole so someone else won't fall, then by all means, do so. Just remember though, you climbed out of it.
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